Sunday, August 22, 2004
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*Moodswing.. Wondering Why???*
22/08/04
10.33pm
Alot of things crosses my mind.. I am jux feeling like a clueless kid in the middle of nowhere under a thunderstorm.. Onli the slashes of rain drops n the heartbeats could be heard.. Standing there wondering wat the fuck am i doing here? There had been quite alot tings happening during the past few days.. Friday as usual i was working.. Kster had change the wallpaper.. Gt S.H.E, 5566 n Kone de.. The Andy Lau changes to Ren Xian Qi le.. It was quite a boring n moody day for every1.. Bcos tt fat ass is watching over us.. Every1 was in a foul mood.. For mi.. I oso duno how cum like tt.. It all started when i saw my smses at orchard wif zX, Tian n MeiZhu (another new fren) Saturday was ji tao even a fark up day i had.. I was clearing up a room.. N i saw a pack of cigarettes.. There is still a few sticks like tt.. (5 - 6 sticks) I dun smoke wat so i gif to Simon lor.. Bcos he ji tao so ke lian.. Dinner he had to eat maggi mee let alone to buy a pack of cigarettes.. But nv did i noe tt the customer actually came back up to take the cigarettes.. Simon had no choice but to hand it over lor.. Lorenz was there looking at the whole process.. As usual.. He told off Ah Bi first.. I am so sry Ah Bi.. Everytime is u kena first bcos of us.. Really feel bad.. After tt Ah Bi told mi tt Lorenz tot is Simon took the cigarettes n regard him as dishonest.. Without hestiating.. I went to confess to Lorenz.. I told him tt the pack of cigarettes is i found 1.. Den i gif it to Simon.. Is not his fault ma.. I dowan Lorenz to wu hui.. Cos he already put Simon n Kanzy on blacklist liao.. Lorenz told mi off lor.. I was a little bu shuang la.. But wat to do.. He is boss.. I jux haf to listen n ren lor.. Den tt Simon was so stoopid to cum up to us.. N bcos of 1 sentence Simon said ar.. Lorenz was on fire.. "It is jux a pack of cigarettes nia.." He is such a fool sia.. Y mux he cum? Y mux he said out tt sentence? I noe he doesn't really noe how to express himself.. It was none of his business oso.. It was mi hu gif de ma.. He jux put in his pocket nia.. I was ji tao sianx tt day.. I duno y i am still working.. Duno.. Maybe tis will be the last mth i be working.. Haix.. Wad a bad day for mi.. Today i was slping wif thoughts n thoughts on my head.. I couldn't slp well.. Tt y i could not meet u zX.. So sry.. Can some 1 tell mi wat the difference between crush n love? I am really at lost.. Y i everytime sms her she jux ignored mi? Some 1 told mi.. 1 way to 4get a past relationship is to try liking some1.. Does tt really work? Can memories be erased jux like tt? It is so easy? If it is.. Den how cum it is called memories? I had tot of liking some 1.. But i tink i am jux using her to 4get her.. It is not beri fair to her.. Told alot of ppl dun be sad.. Mux be happy.. Cheer up.. Y sad? If u can choose to be happy or sad? But can i really do it myself? I dun tink so.. I am jux trying to be happy.. It is so difficult? Every story has an ending.. But in life.. An ending means a new beginning.. So am i belong to story? Or life? Or i dun even exists?
“True love doesn’t have a happy ending. That’s because true love doesn’t have an ending."
"A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance."
maRcUs` (",)
| yawns @ 11:15 PM|
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